Never say goodnight

Here we go again
Off a cliff I fall and then
You turn and you run and you act like you didn’t
Say the things that swept me in
But I won’t let you pretend
You don’t know how this would end
Two lost souls who were meant for each other
A hope I must defend
And I won’t give up this time
No I can’t back down this time
You’ll say to my face you don’t love me and mean it
Before I let you say goodbye
We’re worth another try
Baby don’t turn out the lights
I’ll dance in the dark and I’ll scream out I love you
But I’ll never say goodnight
We’ve been here before
Knee deep... then
cower back to shore
Dare to live,
risk it all
On what some die waiting for
You’re so afraid to feel
To see that we are the ideal
Abandon the fright, walk out on a limb
And believe in something real
Cause I won’t give up this time
No I can’t back down this time
Say to my face that you love me and mean it
And please don’t ever say goodbye
We’re worth another try
Baby don’t turn out the lights
I’ll dance in the dark and I’ll scream out I love you
But I’ll never say goodnight
And I see you when I dream
You’re in every breath I breathe
So don’t say,
and I won’t say
...
Don’t say, no don’t say, 
don’t say, baby don’t say
...
Goodnight... Goodnight..

Remedy

Drug out against my will tonight and I I I
Play the part so it seems like I’m alright but 
I I I’ve
Been so damn sick ever since she
said goodbye
so I I I
Down a drink, 
smear the ink, on her memory’s canvas
in my mind,
ooo
my mind
And then
she caught my eye... 
Exotiic beauty no
words could describe
Followed her to the dance,
the dance floor,
the way mami moved moved me like 
never before
She called out
beckoning
to me with just her eyes, oh those eyes
We let our bodies converse and
then somethin’ inside
assured me... that I’d be fine
Could she be my remedy,
She gives me levity
Ooohooo my remedy,
Is she my remedy
She moved in closer til
our bodies were one, hips locked
in a rhythm
synchronizin’ our lungs
Hands already strayin’ and we’d only begun,
beat drops,
stop and we step on the 1
Then all of the sudden, those we were dancin’ among, took their place in a distant
space far away
from the plain that we were on
Our realm of reality, sensuous duality, a
bestowal of passionate unexpected vitality
Kiss my pain away,
nestled in your refuge, how faintly I lay
Aliviame, sweet closure consume me
completely
I pray
Mi Corazón hervido
I’m no longer astray
Adios lonely fate
... aaaaaahhh
Cause she’s my remedy,
She gives me levity
Ooohooo my remedy,
Yeah she’s my remedy
Hold me tightly love,
and say forever
Promise you’ll never, Forsake or betray
No puedo mas, Besame
You are the angel for which I have prayed
This night is a new day,
you’ve shown me a new way
The color of sunlight,
spilt on my gray
My heart is on fire,
it’s more than desire
She takes me higher
Cause she’s my remedy,
She gives me levity
Ooohooo my remedy,
Yeah
she’s my remedy
(repeat)

meant to be

With butterflies I asked
so scared that you would laugh
But you smiled and just said yes
and we never looked back
Where’d we go wrong
perfect moved to fast
Now we both
have to move on
cause this can’t last
I can’t change you, you can’t change me
and we’re not meant... to be
I’ve learned in my past
that not all good things last
Can’t walk this road together
when we’ve chosen different paths
You want someone that I’m
not
but baby there’s no blame
Thought you were someone else
so I’m guilty of the same
But you’re not her and I’m not him
and we’re not meant... to be
Now I’ll shed just one more tear for you but this’ll be my last
Cause we can only belong to each other’s past
Love is tragic love is splendid... so real and I believe
That each of us is fated... someone’s destiny
But this is what I’m made of... Yes this is what makes me
And I can’t go on living falsely in your dreams
And I can’t lose myself in your fantasy
So this is my goodbye to you cause we’re not meant to be

austin

You say you’ve come to realization
And
I could be the one
So where in that lies complication
I never really let go,
love
It’s true this road we’ve traveled
It’s left scars
and that’s too bad
But baby there’s no one out there
Who’s ever touched me like you have
Please meet me in Austin
... Please meet me in Austin
Well you’ve been strong out on that East Coast
And you’ve made yourself a home
But how often is it he’s cold
And makes you feel so all alone
Holdin’ on to somethin’
Just tryin’ to make it last
And I’d die to be that someone
Just to have a chance
Please meet me in Austin... 
Please meet me in Austin
Don’t ask me to walk away this time
I’ve been down that road
Should I try,
my heart...
it will defy
Cause we both know
That deep down inside, you can build your dam
so
high
But loves gonna break it and flow
It’s not a matter of why, just a question do we try
And I refuse to let go
Please meet me in Austin...
Please meet me in Austin
Please meet me in Austin... Please meet me in Austin
You say you’ve come to realization
And I could be the one

Don’t haunt me

I’m thinking that maybe I shouldn’t be
It’s 4am and I can’t sleep
Is this common or just common insanity
Why do these memories haunt me
You’re gone
and been that way for so long
I thought that by now I’d have moved on
I’m stuck in this place and my mind can’t erase
Your beautiful face so girl
go in
grace and...
Don’t haunt me, Don’t haunt me
Tried so hard to
get over you yeah I’ve done my best
So baby girl if you hear me
grant me
one last request
and...
Don’t haunt me, Don’t haunt me
Wish I
could turn back time,
rewind, wake up findin’
That I still had you and your love was still mine
I’m driven insane tryin’ to reason with
why it is 
I
-
CAN’T
-
HAVE
-
YOU
-
BACK
-
OR
-
JUST
-
OUT
-
OF
-
MY
-
MIND
This madness is tearin’ every shred of me apart
I’ve tried letting you go,
let go of my heart
You’ve turned it against me cause I sleep and I dream
That you 
KEEP
-
COM
I
N
’
-
BACK
-
BUT
-
YOU
-
WON’T
-
DON’T
-
HAUNT
-
ME
I tremble if I think to deep
On the details of your memory
The sound of your voice or the smell of your hair
I faintly feel like you’re following me everywhere
I
wake up at night to the taste of your lips
My mind so diluted that I’ll reach for your hips
Only to find this lonely emptiness
Breathing on my forlorn fingertips
, so...
Don’t haunt me, Don’t haunt me
Tried so hard to get over you yeah I’ve done my best
So baby girl if you hear me grant me one last request and...
Don’t haunt me, Don’t haunt me

Aysha’s song

Shut your eyes and look around
There are things to see
An eerie looking craft descends
And floats above the sea
Three esoteric creatures
Step of the ship at noon
They play kazoos and silver spoons
A rock group from the moon
They’ve glowing hands and no demands
Emitting a certain peace
A random fan in custom van
Sings along in glee
There are no words to comprehend
Just melody in this tune
An aesthetic riot
They’re a rock group from the moon
And they sang... Oooh eh... Oooh eh
In a voice so pure, the singer sang
In an unfamiliar tongue
A sound that felt of love
More than any ever sung
Their song took
flight like beams of light
Each human soul a shard
As rapture’s luminescence spread
And earth became a star
And they sang...
Oooh eh... Oooh eh
And we sang...
Oooh eh... Oooh eh

Tanjentz

First date, broke all those first date don’ts
Politics religion ex’s wills and won’ts
Still no red flag ever did I see
Perfect little puzzle piece she seemed to
me
Brown curls, fair skin, diamond eyes
Bangin’
body when she walked by left me mesmerized
She grabbed my arm in the movie, so I pulled her to me
Ooo her sweet smell sent
blood rushing through me
Then the credits rolled, didn’t want the night to be through
Quickly tried to think of somethin’ Christian we could do
She asked me up for coffee to put a cap on the night
Coffee turned into a kiss and man it felt so right
Now little tangents of love slip through my veins
Far be it for me to try and explain ooo
She’s got my ocean so high, and my sky so deep
She’s got me twisted, tangled, turned, don’t know my head from my feet
ooo
Lightnin’ don’t move faster than this
It don’t burn no brighter or make less sense
Months felt like years in all of
April and May
Most fall as deep in a week as we did in a day
Beautiful soul mind body
Had to start considerin’ flippin’ the
‘m’
in me
Talk began to sing of rings and little ones
But Uncle Sam called I had to
move along
The war in the desert wadn’t goin’ nowhere
I had to go along and help,
I had to do my share
Oooooh... hangin’ on too tight
Is it time or to soon
to make this girl my wife
Cause little tangents of love slip through my veins
Far be it for me to try and explain ooo
She can pick me up or bring me to my knees
She burns the kinda inner fire that a young man needs ooo
Well now little tangents of love slip through my veins
Far be it for me to try and explain ooo
yeah yeah yeah
She can pick me up or bring me to my knees
She burns the kinda inner fire that a young man needs ooo

one drunk kiss

One drunk kiss...
is what
...
Started all this...
I’d been lied to and cheated
I was broken and bled
Thoughts of
fabled
true love
had escaped from my head
Then you
casually came along
like an undiscovered song
This ostracized emotion
finally felt like it belong
ed
What I took as a fling
suddenly meant everything
Just a moment to late
with all my love and now I sing
I’m still drunk in this love for you
And I don’t wanna be
drunk in this love for you
I don’t wanna be drunk in this love for you
But I don’t wanna be sober
One drunk kiss...
is what...
Started
all this...
The unwanted letters
the unanswered calls
The pain of feeling so much
for someone who’s moved on
The sad intoxication
that would lead to this love
Greatest gift ever given
ever sent from above
It’s been three years times forever
since we said goodbye
When you left me with nothing
but to sadly wonder why
I’m still drunk in this love
for you
And I don’t wanna be drunk in this love for you
I don’t wanna be drunk in this love for you
But I don’t wanna be sober
The kiss that ended all
seemed so very small
But really not so different
from the one that made me fall
Tragically unceasing desperately
I made this vow
I’d never love another
but another’s with you now
I’m still drunk in this love for you
And I don’t wanna be drunk in this love for you
I don’t wanna be drunk in this love for you
But I don’t wanna be sober
... not sober
I’m still drunk in this love for you
And I don’t wanna be drunk in this love for you
I don’t wanna be drunk in this love for you
But I don’t wanna be sober...

broken promises

We’re just five past hello then you blow it there goes... one more lie
And I fall right in take a swim, pretend to be blind
But you’re foolin' us both you know you won’t compromise
Well I’ve turned both cheeks, gotta stop repeatin’... redefine
You say that you love me but you don’t
Never gave us one honest shot
and you won’t
I said I’d forgive you and I’ve tried
Forgetting the wreck that you left inside
But I can’t forget...
And forgiveness has yet...
To come to the forefront
of my thought process cause your...
Broken Promises... Keep on screamin in my head
Empty words said to me never meant anything
...
They won’t go away
All your broken promises...
Each another toxic thread
Spun in your web of lies keeping me paralyzed
...
Played and then replayed
I’ve got dreams... dreams to remember
But all those dreams... all those dreams... must be surrendered
A tailspin of denial... A vortex of lies took me down, down, down
And
I don’t know why
I couldn’t just let you drown
Defied fear, showed you all of me
And you exploited and tossed it away all that I let you see
No more... You and Me... No more fantasies...
No more sayin’ ‘em
together just to hear the sound of KKB
No us no we... half way Tennessee
There will never be another “maybe just maybe...”
Cause I can’t forget... And forgiveness has yet...
To come to the forefront of my thought process, I said
I can’t forget... 
And forgiveness has yet...
To come to the forefront of my thought process, I said
I can’t forget... And forgiveness has yet...
To come to the forefront of my thought process cause your...
Broken Promises... Ring like gun shots in my head
Empty words said to me never 
meant anything... They won’t go away
All your broken promises... Each another toxic thread
Spun in your web of lies keeping me paralyzed... Played and then replayed

monster

Did I finally make you draw the line, 
is this where it really ends
Did my time bomb of truth detonate to early
devastating your concept of friends
I
read every letter of every word
of every note that you ever sent
Just an hour ago and it took forever,
now tell me was that time well spent
You created me don’t walk away from me,
I’m your monster
Sorry that I couldn’t turn out to be
just exactly what you wanted
When you close your eyes and I’m all you see,
it’s me your monster
You’ll not escape me, belay me,
it’s too late to save me
Have I become too much,
have I gone too far
Or am I not far enough because you’re still reminded
of who you really are
Did I love too much
or was I just another jar
On your collection’s shelf
mangled hearts left still beating, but u never planned for this...
You told me I had you regardless,
what when or where
Yeah I’ve re-read notes, I’m sure you, wish you could tear
Up and apart, like you did with our love
A love, I undeniably had zero control of
Granted every sense of innocence imaginable
Like did I give you all I could
to make it manageable
Just wanted everything to be more tangible
But now you see me and you crumble cause you’re frangible
You had me
tangled in your web of circumstance and I tried
To keep a love alive you
said would never die
You’re just a victim of a spell you wish you’d never conjured
You did it now deal with it ‘cause I’m
your monster
Have I bled too much
revealed too big a scar
Unfortunate truth
an ugly reminder of who you really are
...
Does it...
burn...
Did I take it all too far
Onslaught of sound... there’s no stopping now, 
guess you never planned for this
You created me don’t walk away from me, I’m your monster
Sorry that I couldn’t turn out to be just exactly what you wanted
When you close your eyes and
I’m all you see, it’s me your monster

somehow

Today’s just another day
It’s on my mind again
Will I have the strength it takes to say
Those words when she walks in
It starts round 2am,
She’s home and needs her man
(needs her man)
This time I can’t be him,
Is this where the end begins, 
Is this where the end begins
I don’t wanna walk out that door,
But I’m starin’ out my window
Thinkin’ maybe life could mean more somehow
What is it we’re waiting for,
Dowe jump or brave the wreck we’re headed towards
Surely I could be something more somehow
3 years changes everything
180 in 3 years
Can’t change the past or get those back
Must go forward now my dear
She takes me by the hand,
Crying, but this was planned
(this was planned)
This,
my ultimatum,
This is where the end begins, 
Well I guess this is where the end begins
It’s time for me to walk out that door,
No more starin’ out my window
I’ve gotta know that life can mean more somehow
There’s nothing else to wait for,
She’s made a choice and now I have to make my own
It’s time to go and be something more somehow
Once a flame and now we’re left without a spark
Thought we’d take it all but the race is won, 
And we are stuck in park
I’m so done with livin’ all
alone, together in this dark
Can’t see what’s round the bend, 
but this chapter’s cometo end
...
It’s time for me to walk out that door,
No more starin’ out my window
I’ve gotta know that life can mean more somehow
There’s nothing else to wait for,
She’s made a choice and now I have to make my own
I’ve gotta know that life can mean more somehow

last words

These are the last words,
my last goodbye
Can’t let the last one go
I wish you the best
I’ll never regret, you and me
One more goodbye
Last happy hello
Was said long ago
Now we’ll never know, what we could be
So throw on that...
Clarity
And let it be
and don’let... any feelings show
Cause for all I know
You’ve let them go for me
Just one more last word, to say the things I should’ve said before
Guess we finally really shut the door
You’re a light
Don’t lose that shine
... for anybody
So now I let go
in peace
With peace be
cause I know
We were real...
If to live is to feel,
my heart beats for sure
...
So
when you hear this song
Remember me... but let me let
these feelings go
Done all I can do
And there’s no more me
And you
Last words to the
only girl I’ve ever really loved, another
last chance
Don’t walk away from
real love for some
painful bullshit romance
Do you remember how
sweet it was last
kiss at Reagan then our
last glance
Or has it faded away... Did it all fade away...
Does it all fade away?

guns drawn

The year was 2G we were out to sea, me and my boys in our blue and green
We hadn’t seen land in a month it seemed, and our next port was Israeli
Lines hit the pier, it was time to go, we were on deck in bout an hour or so
Me and my boy Anton’ Loco, you’ve never seen a duo like this before
A bottle in hand and without a plan, we hit the town, did it up real grand
Parted with a couple Russian lady friends, we were rushin’ cause we had to make a 6am
Cab was long gone when we caught on, there were fences to hop, there were miles to run
We were followin’ coastline and racin’ the sun when some local boys in camies interrupted our
fun
And I said “Ooh ooh… they’ve got their guns drawn”
The fella with the 50 chambered one, we said…
“Whoa whoa Amer-i-can
Crew of the proud U.S.S. Trenton”
They said “ID”, We gave ‘em some
Then they gave us a ride to the pier we docked on
The OOD shouted “Here they come”… salute
“Permission to come aboard” and our day was done
Skip a few tales go forward in time, to Norfolk VA, Waterside Drive
A bouncer and his boys were lookin’ for a fight, juice got him courage and a bloody eye
Cops broke it up and things seemed fine, Hangin’ waitin’ on shore patrol to arrive
But Ton’ didn’t think it justified, me in cuffs and that joker free inside
Told him “You, Jay, Kev, take the car and go, I’ll be fine see you back at the boat.”
Jay said “C’mon” he said “No! Officer… We gonna talk about this some more”
The cop said “Beat it or you’ll be next” But Ton’ didn’t deal to well with threats
He slapped away the cop’s finger that was on his chest then bolted when the cop said you’re
under arrest
And I said “Ooh ooh… they’ve got their guns drawn”
But ooh ooh my boy could run
All state track… and he was gone
They radioed back up, brief description
20 minutes later came joggin’ along
He’d been around down town and was back to square one
Then a trap was sprung, he got clipped and stunned
And therein lies the end of another day’s fun
9/11 came and when the planes hit, the judge’s gavel struck and our case was dismissed
Went back to the boat and I’ll never forget, that day or all the others, my brothers, that old ship
There were stapled heads and broken noses, thorough breds and tough guy poses
A blown-up car first thing in the mornin’, Pac at wet well ops, and now for the closin’
To the U.S.N. Fleet, Bees, my friends, thanks for the memories, I’ll love you to the end